in the midst

I'm always frustrated with my life, my job, my school, my family. Why must I be so bitter? I know God wants me to be here to learn a lesson...To live my life the way He wants me to, in the midst of all the challenge. He never gives us something we cannot handle, if He knows that I can handle this...then I am trusting that when this is over, things will be okay. Leaving Anderson was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I didn't realize it until I was finally gone. I never thought I'd be the one to say that I miss Anderson University. I was reminded by another friends blog that having a mentor is so important. I have been trying my stinking hardest to find someone I can talk to who is older, and more experienced that I can share my life stories and situations with. I know that I can't do this on my own, and i've been trying for the past few months to live on my own without God. He's still there, I just haven't paid enough attention to Him. I miss it, I miss the life I had in Anderson. I miss the friends, the family, etc. It was almost too easy. After college comes nothing but more confusion and frustrations. I feel like I did my freshman year when I didn't know what I wanted to do, except now I know what I want to do. I'm currently working on my master's in counseling, and trying to transfer to either PBA in Florida or Lenoir-Rhyne in North Carolina. Although I may have my selfish desires, I want to do what God wants me to do. I have for the past 3 years based my decisions solely around God, I want my life to mirror Jesus. I want to love people, and help people...these are my desires. I just need to keep reminding myself of who and why I live. I need prayer, satan has done nothing but bring me down....but I need to remain STRONG.